Thursday, May 31, 2007
goodness. man u fans must be darn happy now they have
nani and
anderson, heard of them in football manager, watched them play on
youtube. all i can say is dam impressive.
if only pool worked as quickly in signing their reported targets,
malouda,
simao,
silva and
baines. oh wells. at least we got highly rated
lucas and
leto.
anyway. another interesting word. hail. i mean like somewhere in the back of all our minds is surely the desire to be 'hailed for good performances' or 'hailed as the best' or 'to be hailed as the king, the top dog', den
theres the other type of hail, u know the saying 'it never rains but pours', sometimes its more like 'it never rains, it never pours, it hails'. and its funny for all of us, we desire so much and work so hard for the former, only to forget that the burden of
wadever we are working for could practically the fall on us like the latter. and it really hurts. and then comes the question if we can withstand the hail and be hailed. easier said than done huh. well, if my life is all about the word hail and the process of
achieving either meaning, i ll probably imagine myself in the company of penguins and polar bears at worlds end.
anyway. somehow i wish my ability to dodge and twist and wriggle, the ability to accelerate and dash, and the ability to make late high quality performances could be translated on the soccer pitch. funny how the first applies to circumstances when ur in deep shit, the second applies to catching the bus and
mrts in the morning and the last is how u rise to the occasions to do late minute stuff u have long procrastinated.
cus the soccer pitch seems the only place where these stuff become positive traits.
i m gonna get a new phone soon. which is a good thing duh. with my 6280
deteriorating and after my dad checked and its too expensive to repair once the warranty ends, its probably going on sale. so i ll get a new phone by tonight before i go for camp
tmr which is guess kinda makes me more contactable than i was the last 4 days. anyway, just one of the bright sparks in a horrible horrible day. i m competitive, u call it a public holiday
kickabout, i call it, i wanna win and i wanna score. tried to temporarily return to the tropics from the end of the world, left my scoring boots there, tried to play for the other team only to realise they
dont look for the free man when they play, but rather who they think has a greater ability due to familarity of playing with the person hu is apparently not me cus i m not from their batch. just when the everything was starting to
unshit itself, u get a freaking cramp and when u ran it off, the dark clouds gathering, downpour started. by the time 3 hours was up, i was probably heading back to
Antarctica. and it seems like on the way back, it just wouldnt stop raining, and that was probably the drizzle of things to come. at least the cab driver and the cab fare sandpapered away some of the rough edges.
not like anyone gave a shit. haha. same cliche isnt it, laugh and world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone.
and have u ever had this thing where u wished u could tell the whole world but u just cant and u just cant even if u had a congregation of people queuing to say, hey, u can confine in me. i mean that sort of thing. makes u feel kinda lonely. its like being locked in your own room with the only way out being your key of which u decide to leave in your safe and not keep with u for reasons only u can comprehend and everyone else knocking on the door from the other side say, hold on, we ll get you out. when the room is somehow sound proof on one side and so u can hear others but no one can hear you. that kinda feeling la.
and any form of relief u seek isnt really relief anymore cus it just adds on to the burden you have to carry and while ur stuck in that room, the room deteriorates from the inside.
lost in your own world, where you know the location of the key but cant get to it right now, where u cry alone, where decay sets in on the inside, when all efforts seem futile. and everything u try becomes another way not to open the door if u wanted to try and stay positive and take it in that manner.
den we ll add another cliche 'things will look up, its not the end of the world', and i say, 'will it or will it not?', so where do we, or correction i, go from here....
like drama that needs a this because questions are often left unanswered or because of the lack of a better question. this? is to be continued...
first, we have to beautify the room.
|cowpoo| 3:01 PM|
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